I Am Blessed 2024 | Life
AS THE YEAR ENDS I have been reading past posts as I create new thumbnails for the website. And wow, every year it something or another. More issues, more drama, more frustration. Year in, year out. It has been a rough… not just few years, but decade or more?
BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH
I HAVE BEEN THROUGH A LOT. The years have been one bout of turmoil after the next. Dropped out of college. Became a college drop out. Fighting with my family. Feeling like a failure. Having friends and family turn their back on me. Feeling suicidal. Moving next to the worst neighbors on the planet. Covid. Having the worst argument with my dad. Losing so many loved ones. Being homeless. The fear and uncertainty of leaving the comfort of our hometown and uprooting to a whole new city, with a family that I believed hated me.
MY BLOGS ARE FILLED WITH HEARTACHE. Each year. And me hoping next year will be better. Then another year filled with disappointment and pain unfolds anew.
THERE IS BLESSING IN HEARTACHE
AMID THE PAIN THERE HAS BEEN A LIGHT. The Lord is good and has brought us through every tribulation, and we are still here. I’m still here, still moving forward. Still trying. Still
I HAVE HAD MY WIFE AND KIDS through it all. My wife is my best friend, my love, my soul mate. We have stuck together through so many ups and downs. And I have my three beautiful children. My amazing, talented, artistic daughter. My sweet, musical loving, quirky son. And my loving, unique, playfully rambunctious, youngest little boy.
I SEE SO MANY POSTS ABOUT what we have had to deal with, what we have had to endure. But then I look back at pictures, and I see the smiles, the memories, the moments of happiness amidst all the chaos. We have had out moments. Out times of blessing, even when it felt like everything was galling apart around us and that nothing and no o e was standing by us.
WE WERE ALONE. But we had each other and God. And we still do. In a time that will not last. During a life that is finite. Me and my wife will grow old. We will continue to lose lived ones. My kids will not be little forever. They will grow up. Live will go on. And we will die and be with the Lord, eventually.
RIGHT NOW WE ARE BLESSED. It isn’t perfect. There are those that don’t like us, that look down on us, that wish we fell, wish we gave into defeat, and hope that we do jo succeed.
But let them hate. Let them be bitter. It shows us who is meant to be in out life, and who isn’t meant to be a part of our life.
FAMILY IS A BLESSING
THIS TIME LAST YEAR I had a horrible fight with my dad. We were at each others throats and I vowed to cut him out of my life. And for the first six months of 2023, I did just that. Then we had one last fight in July 2024. And we finally, after years of arguing and fighting, we found common ground.
And through everything that has happened in the last few months of 2024, my mom and my dad have been a source of comfort, reassurance, and light in a way my family has not experienced in years. They are truly a blessing, and have been there for us no matter what. They are amazing and I appreciate and love them so much!
AND MY WIFE’S DAD HAS BEEN A BLESSING. It’s strange. We hated each other. And yet here we are. He let my family move in here. He let me move in here, despite the rage and hate through the years.
He is trying. We have been civil. He loves my kids, buys them gifts, and buys us food. He smiles and says hello to me, even though we don’t talk much. He is trying, and I see it. And if it weren’t for him, we would not have a place to stay. He opened his home to us, and we will be forever grateful.
MY WIFE’S SISTER HAS BEEN A BLESSING to our family as well. My kids love and adore her, and my youngest loves hanging out with her and her dog Lyn. And my wife started working and taking the train an hour to work, and her sister went with her to keep her company! And my brother in law, my wife’s sister’s husband, has also driven my wife and her sister to work and back a few times, which has been helpful and amazing.
My wife also hasn’t had anyone to talk or hang out with over the years, and I know she is happy to have her sister back in her life.
MY BROTHER NIKO IS A BLESSING! Through out the years, while everything has been falling apart and I felt like I might lose myself and take my own life, he has been there for me. He has been a constant source of positivity and guidance. He is awesome, amazing, and has been a source of inspiration and happiness for me, my wife, and my family. I thank, appreciate, and love him more than he will ever know.
I pray that he has an awesome 2025!!! He is getting MARRIED!!!!! I pray for blessing, prosperity, happiness, and that God gives him and his wife the desires of their hearts. Niko deserves that and more, and I pray that he gets it!
WE WANTED TO MOVE
WE WANTED TO GET OUT of northern California. We were tired of that city. It was a nowhere city, a retirement community, a place where people went to die. There was nothing there.
We always dreamt of moving away. We wanted to move to southern California because there was more opportunity, and it was closer to every place we wanted to visit. Universal Studio. Disneyland. China Town. Six Flags. Anime Expo.
But there was never a way to get there. It’s expensive and we’d have to save, then find work, then a place to live. It just seemed impossibly out of reach. But? God is good, and he always makes a way when there seems to be no way.
And here we are. It was through pain and struggle, and not ideal, but we finally got out. We moved to the city where we’ve dreamt of moving to. And only through the Lord’s guidance and blessing are we here.
It’s a struggle, things are kind of rough, and not ideal, but we’re here. We made it. And now we have the opportunity to move forward and push our lives in a direction that we never could before. The opportunity is at hand, and it is a blessing.
I AM BLESSED
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AS 2024 COMES TO A CLOSE I am a stay at home dad. I’m a college drop out. I am 43 years old. I am married to my best friend and we have three amazing children. I homeschool my kids. I drive, I cook, I clean, and I take care of our kids.
I’m an indie YA author writing and planning to publish his books on Amazon KDP. I am a member of Bmore Studios and I plan to stream on Tiktok, Twitch, and post videos to Youtube.
I’m a creator. I have the opportunity to push my stories and I have the opportunity. I have the time. I have to moment. Only God knows if I will succeed or if I will fail.
People look down on me. They underestimate me. Some even hate or despise me. But I am blessed. I have the ines that I need. I don’t need them. I have my wife. I have my kids. I have my mom and dad, and I have my wife’s dad. My dad. My sister in law. My brother Niko. And I have my life. A life I am living my way. A life that my wife and I both believe is right. A life blessed by the Lord.
I will move forward. I will continue in God’s light and blessings. And in 2025, I will succeed. With God, with my wife and kids, backed up by our parents, by our siblings, I will rise to who I am meant to be. I will write. I will stream. I will tell my story. I will finish. The rest is in the Lord’s hands. I love you Lord Jesus, amen!
I hope and I do pray that you have a very merry Christmas Eve, Christmas, and a blessed New Year. May the Lord bless you and your loved ones in 2025. Take care, God bless, and you rock! Bye!!!
