2025 Year-End Rant | Life

It was Hard to Get the Words Out

HERE IS MY 2025 YEAR-END RANT. A year-end rant where I just talk about today. I have tried to update every day, and I wanted to post a lot more frequently. But I got hung up on wanting to talk about how I got here. I wanted to share why we ended up in this living situation. But it’s too much. And life got in the way. That’s a story for another time. Something I need to spend time working on to get right.

AND BECAUSE OF THAT, I ended up not posting anything at all. And it has been an eventful year. A horrible, trying, upsetting year. But I will write about that later. Cause if I keep dwelling on it and trying to write it all down, I just won’t write anything. Which is why I haven’t.

Christmas was Okay

IT WAS A QUIET HOLIDAY. A bit lonely, I will admit. As I’ve said before, I do not get along with my wife’s family. Aside from her dad, grandma, and aunt, the rest of the household is just toxic and annoying. I started putting on a hoodie, dark glasses, headphones, and I go about my business. No one bothers me, but they stare, glare, and say things behind my back. Never to my face. They don’t want to talk to me, and I don’t want to talk to them. The feeling is mutual. But yeah, so because of that…

THEY DID THEIR THING, AND WE DID OURS. We don’t celebrate with the family, and they never invite us. Which is totally fine because I do not enjoy being around them. They’re not good people. Anywho, we spend time just relaxing in the RV. We watched Christmas movies: A Christmas Story 1 & 2, Elf, Stranger Things Season 5 Part 2 Episode 5 “Shock Jock”, and A Muppet Christmas Carol. I wanted to watch It’s a Wonderful Life, A Mickey Christmas Carol, and Journey to Bethlehem, but we’ll save that for next year.

Santa Didn’t Come This Year

WE DIDN’T OPEN PRESENTS. My wife and I didn’t have enough money to buy anything again this year. Just like last year, because of being homeless and the move. Or the year before, because of financial struggles. One of the most heartbreaking things my daughter has asked me over the years was, “Daddy? How come Santa got them (her cousins) everything they wanted, but he forgot to get our gifts?” Yes, we have tried to keep Santa a thing. But it’s gotten harder and harder. I would just tell her, “Well, he missed our tree this year cause it’s small.” or “That doesn’t mean you guys weren’t good this year. Maybe he forgot. But we will try to get you something, okay?” And we’d do what we can to get at least one thing from their list.

WE DID GET GIFTS, THOUGH. My parents came down, God bless them, a few weeks before Christmas. We went out to eat with them at Lazy Dog. Then we went to Walmart and Costco, and they bought us an air fryer (we’ve been wanting one!), and got our kids shoes, rain boots, some clothes, a few gifts on their wishlist, and bought us enough groceries to fill our fridge. It was more than enough, and I am thankful for everything that my parents do to help us out. I love them <3

WE OPENED THOSE GIFTS EARLY. Thus, there wasn’t anything to open on Christmas. But my wife did get paid early, so we bought the babies a VR game, a Fortnite skin, and Robux that they wanted. It’s simple, but they were content. We do try to say, “Sorry, babies. We don’t have much money for anything this year. We can get you a little something, though. What do you want?”

MAYBE IT’LL TEACH HUMILITY or something? I don’t know. It’s a harsh reality of our current circumstances, but my wife and I are trying to work towards more financial freedom. Working on projects and pushing some ideas forward. We hope and pray that 2026 will be the year it works out. It will be. I manifest that sh**! In Jesus’ name, all things are possible.

My End of the Year Thoughts

HOPE. WITH 2026 COMING TO AN END, I am hopeful. I am working for real change and progression this year. Truthfully, I am beat down. Discouraged. I feel forgotten and betrayed. I tried to reach out to family members that I have not been in touch with for years. I reached out, made an effort. And when I stopped texting? I never heard from them again.  

I used to live 8 hours away, so we never saw each other. I’d write, and they would only reply if I reached out. Otherwise, silence. That’s why I lost touch with them before. But after being homeless and moving down here, I’m no more than 30 minutes to an hour away. I thought that would change things. It didn’t. I’m learning that people make time for the things that matter to them. It hurts, but it’s true.

NO ONE WRITES OR TALKS TO ME. I honestly don’t have any friends, offline or online. The only people I hear from are my parents, my younger brother, and my little sister. Although my brother got married recently and is dealing with losing his job and trying to find work, he has been busy. I haven’t heard from him in months, at all. I hope he’s all right. But it’s just me, my wife, and my kids.

I’M TIRED. FRUSTRATED. Done with everything. I am also so over being around this family. This toxic, petty household. These are probably some of the worst people I have met in my life. It’s no wonder my wife left so many years ago. And I am done with this city. I hate city life and city people. I’m a small-town guy, and I want to move back to small-town living. But we have our plan. This year, we hope to move out and get our own place. We want to look into getting a new (albeit used) car. For me, I want to write more, grow my social media presence, and start doing online gigs to make money. My wife hopes to start streaming more and turn it into at least a side income. We save, we persevere, we grow, we move.

Thank you for reading. I hope and pray you have a blessed end of the year! Take care, god bless, and you rock~!